Just Another Beautiful Soul.

last post.

2007-07-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hello blog. Despite half a year of being with you, I'm sorry, I have to let you go. Due to the coming peer pressure and all, I will be switching to LiveJournal. In order not to let OUTSIDERS interfere in my life anymore. It's going to be private and only available to my friends. HAHAHA

bye blog, due to the memories, I don't think I'm ever gonna be deleting you. (:

MOVED !

to http://iamkingsolomon.livejournal.com (:

We don't care anymore.

2007-07-16T02:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO, THIS IS YOUR NEW SUPER HERO.
OH-OH. It's 2.49am, AND I DONT HAVE SCHOOL TOO-MORE-LOW. HAHAHAH ! I've got too points of views to this.

a) I have to fucking take the train to Dhoby Ghaut starting next year, and it's fucking tiring, and costs a yearly $4000. Mhmm, sweet.

b) I'm fucking glad, life in SA is gonna end. Yeah sure, I bet you a $100, teachers, discipline masters, OMs are all looking at this now. Oh hello Dennis ! :D hahahah, FUCK SCHOOL, all you guys ever fucking do is, screw me up, and put me in detention all year long. I dont fucking care if anyone sees this, because I don't live to be afraid of authorities no more. I live for myself. Regarding the Angel Lee Incident, HAHAHAH, it wasn't fucking me. What're you gonna do to me, bitch. Oh, sorry. I meant BITCHES. BIAAATCHESSSSS.

Put me on curfews, lock me up, whatever. As far as I'm concerned, I'm fucking innocent, and I'm happy about all this. I don't feel any form of remorse or whatsoever. Brothers& Friends of mine in SA, I'm just sorry that you guys have to spend another 1 or 2 years stuck in there. Yeah, great people in there, I admit. But, the authorities are all fucked up.

HAHAHAH, I don't know for sure, whether this words typed are all typed in anger or whatever, but I know, it's time. Time for enlightment.

forget yesterday, we'll make the great escape.

don't bother explaining, they wont know us anyway. (:

Marvin die Marvin die.

2007-07-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

Mhmm, after speaking to somebody exceptionally important to me on the phone, I now realised it just sucks to be in this stage, when everybody is trying to help you, and you're too rebellious to even listen to what's going on.

Tommorow, because of her, I'm going to school, and try to appeal for my case. Fine, that's still not over.

I thought everything had ended at queensway, turning out this shit isn't over. What I meant was, the anger & hate inside of you, hasn't gone away, and is still breeding. Yes I perfectly understand you, as a human being, to have those emotions. But, what's done is done. I don't think of you as small ? And I didn't eat you. Yes yes, you're telling me your world would come and fuck me up bad. But have you ever pondered, who made the first move, who confronted me first, and who asked me what to do about it, without giving me time to respond ?

You're not the only one that has hate& anger inside of you. I do. Yes, I admit, maybe it's kinda wrong to express it like that, but think, did I ever have a option to think of my next move. NO. You guys pushed everything to me like a toddler eating what he doesn't even know. The difference is, I know what's going on, the toddler doesnt. You say it's not your style to say sorry, did I force you to ? It's not my style to be assaulted, could I possibly refuse ?

Yes, you got hit badly by me, no doubt it was a fight. But yes, speaking honestly, you didn't have a option. I understand that. But please, bear in mind, that that was all, purely payback. To not have a chance to even think my options, I wanted you to feel how was it like having 12 people outnumber you, without a chance of retailiating, nor help. Not your people, I know, but your friends, your control.

What I don't understand is how you can just say you're angry and stuff, but please, I'm thinking on your behalf. Yes, you can get angry, but I don't think there should be an aftermath, because we agreed the matter was alreadly resolved. At least I did.

This my point of view, and I hope you understand, thanks and byebye. Oh yeah, please people, I don't really fucking care how much you guys think of me as the villian, but bear in mind, it's either I win of he does. Peace, (:

people undercover, trying to break me apart, that's what their living for ?

you know it tears me up inside, Dara Toh.

2007-07-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

Fuck school, if this is their response to me, I'll just leave. I think , there's somewhere out there for me. CHEC, MDIS, whatever, I don't care. Just leave this stupid place.

Forget worrying, it never did shit to help me. And I help you're planning a relapse. I don't know ? I don't care.

Met Dewy and Fai last night, after eating steamboat at Pris's. HAHAHAHA, fucking funny and full sia the steamboat ! HAHAHA SPENCER'S ONE HELL OF A JOKER I SWEAR. AND I MET NEW FRIENDS ! YAY ! HAHAHAH

Then I realised I only had $2 for transport, and Dad was being PMS-ey at me, so I decided to cab down to Dew's at spend the night. HAHAHAH, woke up the next day at 3 ? knn the 2 brothers. Didn't go school , met Akira, Shixiong, Zoe, and Chevonne, to eat at RK HOUSE.

HAHAHAH, so stupid, we spent most of the time scolding Faizal, and his teeth and shit about him. Then we went to the playground, but with CHEVONNE WATERMELON so late, hahah we could only slack for a while.

Hmm, I think I'm getting too detailed. HAHAHA, fine, skip skip, fast forward !

To D***, you entered my mind again, I don't know what to do this time. I'm attached, but I can't find a reason to let you go, again. Please, just try to understand me.

mhmm, pefect song for me.

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,

is it half empty of our wins or of all you've given me.

I know I've been selfish,

I know I've been foolish,

but look through that and you will see,

I'll do better, I know,

Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,

don't tell me I will make it on my own,

don't leave me tonight,

this heart of stone will sing

till it dies if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,

I listen to your breathing,

amazed how I somehow managed to

sweep you off of your feet girl,

your perfect little feet girl

I took for granted what you do.

But I'll do better, I know

Baby, I can do better.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,

it's bringing on the fight,

and I've got this feeling,

that everything's alright,

and don't you see,

I'm not the only one for you

but you're the only one for me.

Yes, I like someone else, but what the hell, what can I do ? I can't possibly express all these infront of you, for you won't appreaciate and like them. I really really really want you back. If there was something that could erase the past and let us start anew, I would give it all. My life, my money, my interest, my everything. All for you. (:

I'm not the only one for you;

but you're the only one for me.

2007-07-11T12:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was probably the worse day of my happy life. I don't know who to blame, what to do.

Went to school, got caught for hair(it's okay, the school's just jealous), then got called up for an extraordinary thing. Apparently the school thinks that I've harrassed a particular female teacher on Msn, on Friday. But you see, the contridiction is, Nicholas and Shah were at my place, and I as bathing. They both could be witness, as I fucking locked the door.

So yes, I got suspended, and I have to take the damn rap. And probably get expelled. Oh wells, I've thought of a school.(:

Today, I hit my own brother, with my own bare fist. Nothing can ever erase the memory, guilt and shame etched in this heart. I feel remorseful, but there's nothing I can do. I feel sorry, but the only way is to keep reminding myself, that violence can't solve everything.

Yes, I had revenge. But the outcome was not as expected. To see blood just continuelly flowing out his face, is what I had dreaded. No doubt, I had punished him, but still, to see him not angry with me, and crying, is something worse. This mental image of him telling me he's not angry, only kills. I wished he would. I wished I hadn't said those comments and remarks about her.

I've came there to kill you,
Won't leave until I'm done.
Kill my stupid mentality,
This vengance brood out of chilidishness and shame.

please, take me away.

2007-07-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

This feeling just sucks. You know what guys ? I think Mr. T or something is coming for me. Or something strange is just going on.

Now, I fell out with you. One of my best brothers I can ever have. What is this ? A small comment. Yes you forgave me. But now, things are not back to normal. Answer me, haven't I been the most loyal friend you can ever find ? Following you everywhere and helping you whenever you had trouble or difficulty. Exchanging your Macnuggets, yes it might sound silly, but remember, who took the risk of being stupid in front of the whole Macdonals crew ?

I'm not angry, I'm very apologetic, I wished that I had not made that stupid comment, but what's on my mind is to turn back time. I'm sorry bro. For everything I've done. Maybe what they've said about me was right. " Too blind to see tommorow, too broke to beg or borrow."

To you, I won't even give a shit that's happened this afternoon. If you really want to create trouble, it's just fucking childish. And needless to say, you're fucking fighting a losing battle. I'm starting to learn, I'm not taking shit lying down now. For the past 14 years and 6 months. Yes. But not anymore. Not now.

And hello love. Apparently please stop putting me into miserys and frustrations, because I really cannot understand a fucking inch about girls. So please, clean up my problems first and then love.

I need help; urgent.

getting late, i just can't wait.

your history is mine.

2007-07-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Hello blog. I just feel so quiet and distressed now. What's up with everybody now, when love's apparently turning to hate. She's not in any right state and form of mind and soul to even love, and why am I causing so much stress towards her ? Why am I so over-sensitive towards her ? Does she even know ? Fuck Love, I'll wait for you. I promised, and I'll just stick to that.

On the bright side, everything's good now, at least the clique's still there, and you're still here for me. (: I love you baby, goodnight honey.

AHAHA, and just some sick, sadistic thoughts, I love the way you play mind games with me, and keep me in suspense, because you just make me love you so much more. Keep up the good work honey, and I'll be on my way to history.

Archers in your arches

Raise your fingers for one last salute

And bleed this skyline dry

Your history is mine.

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2007-07-05T20:01:00.000+08:00

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leonlee you bastard

2007-07-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

AHAHA, so we caught the Transformers, and for me and a certain few, TWICE. ): HAHAHAH okay, at least we loved it. Went home straight.

Dear friends of this academy

oooh romeo is bleeding to death

To see a friend bleed to death, what for

Some kind of metaphor that I cant see?

So I'll drink until I see it.

This sky will make me sick

So I'll give up on you

Archers in your arches

Raise your fingers for one last salute

And bleed this skyline dry

Your history is mine

So you want to hold me up and bring me down

Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down

I don't care for your sweet scent

Or the way you want me more than I want you

It's all mine.

I don't know how long this shit can last.

This academy, will somehow fall after the 2 go their seperate ways.

piss off my shoulders ?

pictures of sentosa.

2007-07-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

OKAY PEOPLE, THE PICTURES AS PROMISED !

hahah, please not, not exactly according to order !

This is a picture of a 12year old watermelon.

I think ShiXiong's hot in a clown suit.
Dont you think so ?
HEYHEY.

Groupshot !

Sentosa.

Tsk tsk, sialan sia

4 girls, 1 normal guy, and a pink duck.

HAKUNA MATATA !

Before the soccer game;

HAHA, faizal.

Rugby previews.
yes yes, step only i know.
Now, Yicong has no smiley.
The morning stone schedule
BUSTED !
so let me take this medicine to quench my love for violent things.

:D

2007-07-03T05:32:00.000+08:00

OKAY ! So was Sentosa today. Pretty fun, everybody had fun I guess. Played soccer, 2-1. Went tanning, went swimming, and fucking hell, the rugby game was bogus luh ! ):

HHAHAH, I solemly swear to upload the pictures when I'm not tired.

oh, do you remember the suite at siloso ?

blahblahblah !

2007-06-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

After staying at home the whole day because I was having a slight fever. God please help me, I think my time is up.

Okay fellows, yesterday, I admit. Was finding death. I shouldn't have been so cocky and proud. I'm sorry to those that cared alot for me. Thanks, today's lesson was learnt. KNN THAT IDIOT, next time I you, all your old asses better scram. Or else your next hand also got cast I tell you !

Hahaha, I'm just messing around. WORLD PEACE. HAHAHAH !

oh my sleeping child.

I love PRIS. :D

2007-06-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO, so yesterday was spent working at Eunos, helping my uncles, which fucked me upside down, making me the ultimate slave of the year for just $7.50 and hour. We took 1 hour finding the fucking place can.

Then me and cousin went down to Esplanade, for the Avalaunche, oh-so-punctual meeting. HAHAHA, so from the schduled 4pm meeting, it started at 9pm. AGAIN.

Today was good, I didn't go to school, becaaaaause my deaar PRIS woke me up late. HAHAH, but it was for a good cause. Imagine getting caught for your hair, shoes, and piercings 2 minutes after you stepped into school.

Went to work, got tortured by the cruel bosses that claim to be my uncles. Tell me, AM I ADOPTED OR WHAT ?! BENJAMIN GETS ALL THE SLACK SHIT AND I END UP BEING THEIR RUNNER.

Then I went to meet Pris! , with all her friends. Ate dinner at Swensens, mhmmm, nice salmon&mushroom baked rice. :D Then we caught Transformers. MAN, THAT MOVIE IS HOT ! OOOH, it's like, every boy's fantasy to watch it man. And not excluding a silly girl at the side of me screaming and shouting when they fought and when a action scene shot up. Mhmm, noisy, but cute. (:

take this hand, let's go on a journey, babeye.

school is NOT fun.

2007-06-26T01:37:00.000+08:00

Okay, so the night before school, I didn't sleep for nuts. Went to meet Iggy as early as 6.15 ?! WHO DOES THAT ?! HAHAHA SCHOOL FUCKING STARTS AT 7.20AM YOU BLACK IGGY.

So school was exceptionally okay today, except the new time-table and fears for hair-check. But still, I still couldn't sit still and skipped lessons for the last two periods. :D

I SWEAR, ME AND YICONG MUST BE JINXED OR SOMETHING. On the way home to get the oh-so-fine ciggerettes, around the park area there, we were walking and suddenly, A FUCKING PIGEON JUST DROPPED FROM A TREE TO THE GROUND. We were like, WTF. Best thing yet, it was still alive ! So we finally took our guts to walk/run through and we saw a fellow bird lying on the grass, dead. Yicong was like, "wah, still got alot sia" HAHAHAHA. KNN YICONG YOU PUSS.

So after we got our stuff we went down to Toa Payoh, with the rest. Slacked and chilled there, and I did ShiXiong the Taitai Gay's homework. HAHAHA FUN SIAAA !

hey thanks, I finally could get the photos of the wall. (:

shine like a sunny day.

2007-06-24T02:28:00.000+08:00

My intended looong night's rest was disturbed by NgaiYicong. That idiot, came at 12pm, saying he wanted to smoke freely and could only do it at home. HAHAH that ass. Then followed him blockshopping. Apparently, yes, Singaporeans are fucking kiasu. THEY KEEP ALL THEIR SHOES AT HOME. Well, who doesnt ?! HAHAHA. So, we were unsuccessful, again.

Then we went to Faizal and Dew's. Seriously, Richard, I think being your friend after so many years, have left a weird, crazy, fucked up impact in my mind right now. Within 2minutes of being in that place, I was greeted by a naked Richard standing wet and asking if the heater was on. WTTTFFFFFFFF. HAHAHAHA then that sick bastard went to shake his *****. HEH, you know what luh. QUEK, GO SEE A SHRINK.

Then after everyone was ready, we went to town, and was SUPPOSED TO WATCH FAN4. WTFFFF, turns out, everybody didn't want to watch it due to some stupid shitass reasons.

Also, we got to surprise Alvin with a BROWNIE CAKE ! :D HAPEE BIRTHDAY ALVIN !

Sorry luh, 1 day late, AT LEAAAAST NOT SLICE RIGHT ! :D hahaha, to me, you're the best person in Math I ever met. Thanks for helping me scrape through our lower secondary exams by copying, cheating, teaching, whatever.

btw, thanks superwoman, for visiting me. (:

Formal, birthday celebration. Oh whatever !

HAPEE BIRTHDAY ALVIN !if we don't take it, when will we make it ?

avaluanche

2007-06-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA, so embarrassing, I took 1 hour + to pierce my left side of my lip today. ): HAHAHAH WHATEVER !

OMG, I swear, this was the best party in my 2 years of clubbing life. Mhmm, besides having to work during the party, THE REST CAME ! :D :D HAHAHAHA, WOAAH, Van and friends were dancing HOOTTTT huh ! HAHAHA

And yay ! I got organiser tag ! WHOO HOOO ! HAHAHAH :D

and here's a lil bit of camwhoring after the party.

you turn me; upside down. (:

HEY MONKEY !

hey it's me !i know i know.riding on backs !

ooooohhhhhhhh sweet child o' mine !

hahaha

2007-06-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

Hello, good morning blog. I don't know why after I wake up I'll be blogging like almost instantly. HAHAHA weird Solomon. Things were good yesterday, played mahjong, YES JASMINE AGAIN ! with Marv, Ben and Yicong. Surprisingly, everyone won. Except Marvin. Mhmmm, Bro, I pity you bad. $45 eh. ):

Okay before that , went to accompany cousin Ben to the doctor's. OKAY, not doctors. POLYCLINIC LUH HOR. HAHAHA ! Nothing wrong about that, abit budget and waiting only what ! HAHAHA FUCKER.

Then met Cherie and Shermaine and went to town, got free lunch because the uncle forgot to charge. STUPID FUCKERS. HAHAHAHAH.

Met the gang and slaaacked around. I SWEAR, I'm IN LOVE WITH THE BEAR PAW ! HAHAHAH stupid Chervonne.

Avalaunche's meeting was serious seh ! First time I experienced teen kids holding such serious talks. Oh my, what's happened to the kiddy teenagers ?! HAHAHAH enough said, I'm still a teen too.

Bear paws are the sex

Hello, I look like a Druggie.

Hello friends.

she's a maneater.

Dara Toh.

2007-06-19T05:51:00.000+08:00

There's a beautiful sky tonight and
if you were by my side then we could share it but you're gone.
So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars
because nothing matters anymore.

If I could only see you now for about an hour

maybe just a minute

just to ask

What has he got that I don't have?

Is it his brown eyes?

I know black eyes get boring but I'll wear dark glasses all the time and

if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes.

Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish.
Like the 5 months of my life that I gave to you and
now you put me through hell.
You break me up.
I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart.
Why am I so pathetic?
I don't get it why you won't return my calls.
Can't you look at me once?
And please if you got a minute,enjoy this lonely sky with me.
If this sky's going to eat us then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you.
I'd love to be scattered to hell with you.
To hell with you.

tonight, sleep tight.

2007-06-19T04:38:00.000+08:00

Today is a sleepy day, I must say. After playing and winning mahjong from Alvin, Ben, and Marv, got home at around 8? Then tidied up everything to receive a special guest. Now, that guest is special, she specialises in teaching people how to cook eggs, or so she claims. HAHAHAH and after "learning" how to cook 2 eggs, I think I've mastered it. NOT. HAHAHAHA !

Then slept through everything till 7, woke up and watched tv, got back to bed at 10. Now, help me, it's 4.39am and I can't get to sleep ! I have to wake up at 8.30 to rush to Sengkang to accompany cousin Benjamin to the doctors. SHIIIIT.

Hey, to You. Honestly, it's so good that we're starting to talk normally, but I hope you alreadly have the opportunity to forgive me and restart on whatever that's happened between us. Not as lovers, as friends. (:

she's cool and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing.

Hate Love.

2007-06-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO ! Yesterday was definately better than yesterday's yesterday. We had fun, I guess ? With Devan and his fucked up emo-kias. Mhmmm, I must say, numbers boost confidence. AHAHA, yesterday was like, the first time I ever spoke so fiercely. HAHAHAHA DESMOND, look at this, SOLOMON IS THE HERO ! HAHAHA, kidding luh.

I'm getting weirder each day. Honey Stars and Chocolate Milk are like my favourite food now. I ate 2 boxes of that yesterday, and everything I see is starting to get vintage. Like, Archie vintage. How ? I think it's just me.

i never felt so alive after she left me 3 months ago.

Gone so young.

2007-06-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today was boringly normal. I seriously dread normal normal days. ): After spending 6hours on the PS2 while Yicong , Marv, Calvin and Ben were playing mahjong yesterday, I am fucking tired.

Got my ass down to Serangoon to meet my probation officer at what, 3.30 pm?! wtf. So fucking early. He was stupid, played lame mind games with me just to see what I have been up to. HAHAHAH TOO BAD ADELINE, I OUTSMART YOUR PROBATIONAL ASS ANYTIME.

Then I went down to meet Yicong, Blackie and Meiyin(?) and Marvin to get skinnys ! I love my skinnys, although I got exceptional legs. EXCEPTIONAL HOT LEGS OKAY. :D :D So fucking stupid, we didn't catch Fantastic4 today luh ! That Desmond had to go so early ! AND MEIYIN I WANT YOUR SHADES !

We then went to fucking pool at Monstercue. OMFG I WANT TO CRY AND SCREAM. My pool skills, even though not good, have fucking detoriated till I'm below retarded standard. ): ):
Lost every game, from yesterday till now. How, not only do I need to brush up, I need a pool teaaaacher ! If possible, a nice, hot one. :D Female female.

MY EGG TEACHER ! YOU FUCKING KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I can't believe I'm actually getting an idiot 1 year younger than me to teach me how to cook eggs. hahahah !

Thanks , for that talk we had yesterday. I really owe alot to you in where I am now. I guess I never really believed "blood is thicker than water" , but now I do. Honestly, I'm ashamed to be your cousin. Thanks just for helping me through everything. Sorry I can't contribute much to help you. Go see a doctor soon, you need it.

i owe barclay 100000 sushi-s !

hello holidays.

2007-06-15T02:09:00.001+08:00

Okay, I haven't been home for 2 days, and I'm starting to miss my tiny crib. HAHAHA, and the moolah I haven't been receiving from Dad due to my absence from home.

Mhmm, so now, Yicong, Calvin, Benjamin and Marvin are playing mahjong, and kiddy me is playing Spongebob and WWE on the PS2 now. PSSSSTT, honestly, I so love holidays. Holidays=work=money. :D

Seriously, the best times of my life is holidays, I get cash from work, I get the freedom of sleep a simple human isn't allowed to, I get my life back. (:

mhmm, I love this life. And btw, I think I'm in love with you.

MONEY IN MY MIND

2007-06-11T14:43:00.000+08:00

Being a workaholic isn;t fun at all, I swear. But hey, you get the moolah ! HAHAH. After the Melwani's project, Texas Car Carnival at Police Academy. Was fucking tiring, but I think I had fun. Sleeping on lorrys while the boss isn't around, getting sushi from Superwoman, MHMMM :D

Yesterday was great, went to Cine at 10.30 to watch Zodiac and Men In White with F. I swear, the Zodiac is one stupid movie. STUPID. Men In White was good, a pity I kept dozing off. ): ): ):
Luckily you were there to hug me, hahaha fucking cold theatres.

let the bodies hit the flooooor !

come back to texas !

2007-06-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

You said you need a break,
A little time to think.

But then you went away
With some guy named Leeland

That you met at the bank.

There's nothing wrong with Singapore !
Except no snow and no rain.
I really liked you and you'll roll out of fame.

Come back to Singapore,

It's just not the same since you went away.

Before you lose your accent,

And forget all about pratas and chicken rice !

There's a seat for you at that little bar

And a guy that's still quite sane.

Besides australian food sucks compared to everything here anyway !

Eh, I tried not to make it obvious alreadly ! :D

The Love Triangle.

2007-06-06T17:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm, I guess I haven't been the same since the last breakup, like, laziness to do everything and shit, but I guess I have to do something about it ! :D

Okay, been spending my last two days at Pasir Ris, chalet. Happy Birthday Jeremy ! ahahah, even though we've only met like, twice ? HAHAHA, but yeah, you're a nice guy. Nights at the chalet was stupid, plain stupid. First night, gang trouble ! Okay, BenBangs and MeowMeow and Calvin saved the day, fine. Second night, spooky shit at our chalet, scary shit happening to us and all. HAHAHA. Glad I'm back home.

And toooo you. :) ,
I'm so happy we've met each other, and I'll learn to understand your current situation. Yeah, maybe flings are helpful towards you at this point of time, but I hope you'll consider what I said to you last night.
Bye girl, :)

what is nothing i don't have, is it his hair, i know nice mohawks get hot but i'll cut it hotter if i have to. :)

Your call.

2007-06-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

This is, for you.

I can’t believe that you're wasting your time

thought you could found your way back

you heard my story but heard it all wrong

Well, it’s just so little, and I can see

through you and know it will end.

this distance, this secret is seeping out my skin

I was over it before, but you brought me back to where I began

and I’m starting out again and i'll remain here until the end

Honestly, I’ve heard it all

bring out your colors of

natural glow

because all you want

is to know that I’m yours.

And I can’t believe in anything

when the differences are the same

you’re not listening anyway.

I hope my words ever got to you.

Bye.

Love today.

2007-06-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

Hohoho, so I didn't get to go to work, because I fell sick. And honestly, sleeping is seriously being really annoying. HAHAH, and I must say, I kinda enjoy my job now, okay don't hate me ! at least better than home and town and wasting money, right ? :D HAHAHAHA.

I don't know, I can't say you loved me the most, because I'm not too sure about you then someone. Call me when you see this okay ? I'm sorry that I was too rash to make that decision. I mean, we don't even know whether each other is serious or whatever right ? So yeah, I don't want nobody here to get hurt. For me, I'm just sorry towards you, because there's something I can't quite forget.

please leave, I only kill.

And now I wonder.

2007-05-30T06:53:00.000+08:00

MHMMMMM, I guess this June, I'm rich ! HAHAHA. okay, whatever. Thanks to Yvonne and Yicong, Solomon got a job at 11 Beach Road. He's helping to sell branded clothing like FCUK, Zara, Billabong, Ripcurl, Onil, and some other good shit. Prices range from half price till 1/10 of the ones at retail outlets ! So, come down, and VISIT HIM ! :D

Ahaha, DANIELLA YOU KNOW WHAT YOU OWE ME HUH.

when I wake you're never there, when I sleep you're everywhere.

Forget the fuck outta her !

2007-05-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

Life this week has been totally reversed, with life at night and bed in the morning. Hmmm, going out 1 day and sleeping for 2, honestly, it kinda sucks.

And 1 thing good, HOLIDAYS ARE HERE, AND FUCKING FUCKING BETTER NOT GO.

shout out your name so it echoes in every room.

Beg to make things easier.

2007-05-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

HAHAH, so my body clock was reversed so bad that now, I'm still fucking awake.

Okay, so we wanted to go to DXO on saturday, but found out that there wasn't an event, nor a party, so everything's 18. So we couldn't go, and we went to celebrate the Avalaunche's people's birthday. Chang 'Er and Mohawk2's at Jab1. HAHAHA, things were goood, a pity I didn't drink. At least I tell myself not to. HAHAHA.

I stoned;

Meet Calvin.

Ben Bangs !

Hello, we are the 4 bored fucks !

Ben Bangs, Calvin Takeshi, Indian step Chinese

Calvin-"Eh, one puff lah, don't like that."
Marvin- "Sianz, nah take lah take lah. "

Mel and Me.

OOH, SO SWEET, hahaha lightbulb !

Jab1

And I'll be, love's suicide,
And I'll be, the greatest man of your life.

I love you, still.

2007-05-20T08:14:00.000+08:00

Hey, I posted on LiveJournal.

OKAY, TODAY WAS FUCKED. I got myself, FREE KFC, courtesy of Mr Tng, HEHEHE. And free biscuits, cookies, and mahjong.

Dara, please go to twisteddknots todays.

I still want that feeling back.

The sun goes down !

2007-05-17T06:07:00.000+08:00

My english is 80% and above, according to Shah, top 5% of NA. WHOOT WHOOOT SOLO. hahahaha, I love my own holidays.

To refresh the memories of the THOUSANDS there, hahahahah ! Life is 6pm onwards. Anything before that is sleeep sleeeep sleeeeeeep !

So friday, I'm getting my tattooo done ! Nah, I'm not backing out this time. Not again, never. HAHAHA, so far, Jasmine and Tabitha ? are following. Anymore ? :D :D :D :D

the black star with uv tattoo.

HISTORIEEEE

2007-05-14T02:45:00.000+08:00

okay, studying for History seriously is nuts. I don't fucking know how I'm gonna survive the past for the next 2 & a half more years. But it's goood, I'm sure to pass Round 1 tommorow !

i'm at the bottom of the line,and i'm never gonna get it.

I'm gonna get it.

2007-05-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

Math paper 2 was done eaaaasily, with me just having 3 hours of fucking sleep after talking bullshit with an angmoh.

Okay, so now it's 7.30 and I was supposed to meet the rest at 4. mhmmm.

All I want, is to be just friends;

Understand;

Don't hate me,

Feelings change, and your strength in me

I'm sorry.

Honesty is old,

I made mistakes I know.

And I knew something's wrong,

I couldn't lead you on.

I LOVE SLEEPING.

2007-05-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

Okay, so much to my dissapointment, I did math with breeze, YEEHOOO THANKS YICONG AND ALVIN FOR HELPING ME WITH MAATH YESTERDAY. :D :D

And, guess what, from 11am-845pm, is how many hours of sleep? Someone pleaaase count. HAHAH HOW THE FUCK AM I GONNA SLEEP LATER? nvm, hardcore hardcore.

when you get a boyfriend and repeat things all over, please tell me.

I think I'm trying too hard.

2007-05-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

Mhmmm. Spidey3 is rockass! HOHOHO.

So I've decided alot on whether to post this up, but by the circumstances, you bitch wouldn't even have bothered to care to read. No, all this isn't based on anger, but by fact. What, 6 months ago I was whispering sweet nothings to that ear, and now, it's all hate and anger. If you discrimate people based on their past mistakes so badly, then I don't think the yellow ribbon or whatever project is fit for you to even talk about it. How this felt 6 months ago, it's completely different. To the point where I completely hate it. No, No, NO. This ain't about you anymore. It doesn't work. It's not worth it. Never did.

On Yao's birthday, when I asked you to meet and call back that number, you never did. Instead, I was guilty, I had to take the rap. This really sucks, you make a fucking good lawyer. The ability to twist things around and just lie is uncanny resemblance to those high up in the subordanate? courts. If you really wanted to meet him, just fucking tell me. I will adapt not to mind. Not to even take a second glance at you.

Just freaking think. With that oh-so-intellectual brain of yours. Just think. No, not if you were me, but as somebody looking at me, judging. Surely, it takes 2 hands to clap, but did I ever say that? NO. When you said shit and humiliated me, I kept it down, something I couldn't do to a normal friend. Just for you, I thought my life and everything was worth it. Now, I look back and I realise what's the problem. LISTEN, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CHANGE, IT'S STILL IMPERFECT TO YOU. And I'm so sorry to you perfectionist that I didn't understand. Okay, things look bright and sunny over at your side now, but I hope you do remember, that what goes around, comes around. Hmm, it's kinda positive here too, so I hope you'll have everlasting greatness in the fuckture. Oh, future. :D

fuck you right back.

I wanna take you there.

2007-05-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

WHOOO. Apparently I keep encountering the same old shit fucked up problem I encounter once every 3 months. The fucking hair. "oh it's too long, you have to options. Either you let me cut it, or you get your parents to come down to bring you home, until your hair is cut to the school's standard then you can come home." Of course I chose the latter. But apparently, my dad takes morning naps and goes to work in the evening, therefore, CLASS SUSPENSION UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE. WTF I SWEAR, school is leaving me no option.

THEREFORE, TOMMOROW IS SOLOMON'S HOLIDAY.

The air's cleared up, everybody's has gone on with life. She's got a new life ahead, and I don't think I should stay around and bother her any longer. Thanks for the memories!

feelings dissapeared, can i be your memory?

You'll only find tears.

2007-04-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA! I was suprised yesterday, at BarBaaBlackChic, when only the 10 of us started the dance floor.Surpisingly, we made that tiny space with us, tiny population expand 2 times more. It was fun, I had fun, didnt you? ;)

don't you say goodbye to me, just turn your back away and leave.

Mid-years aint shit to me. (:

2007-04-28T13:53:00.000+08:00

WHOOO ENGLISH WAS A BREEZE. ahahah, school is still, lousy as usual.

Starting from today, I have devoted myself to the everyday, boring, stupid, meaningless life of studying! WHOOO CLAPS CLAPS. hahaha

Eh Melissa, "superman" here needs thaaa phone baaadly! :D :D please, superwoman, you rock!

as we hit the floor, ladies, where you at?

Okay, healed.

2007-04-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

Okay, I have moved on. With force. Without pride, with shame that I regret making the move 3 weeks odd ago.

ENGLISH PAPER 2 TOMMOROW? BRING IT ON.:)

I tried to fall, but fate wouldn't let me down. (:

3 weeks and counting.

2007-04-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm, what do you call it, when a perticularly painful breakup can cause many things to "lag" towards one party?

I don't know honestly. 3 weeks and counting, my mind it kinda races, when I think of you so happy, but at the same time, I'm happy yet angry. I'm sure I voiced this out to you before.You seem as happy as you've ever been. My chance of being open was broken and now I'm worse than convicts, which I don't even know, when I'll ever get a chance to get out of this pain and sorrow, maybe never.

My words, whatever I speak, they all don't seem to come out right when I'm face to face standing next to you. But, I'll still try my very best to say, I'm happy for you.:)

If only, I had. Unfortunately this 4 words are the only comforting words pleasing to my ears.

when I sleep I dream and it's gets me by, I could make believe that you're here, tonight.(:

Take what's left of me.

2007-04-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

As if all is not lost, you came, invaded my space, took my freedom, and my world seems to be revolving around you now. Now I'm not saying that's bad, but it's awkward. To the point when I don't want to be with my friends because you're around. To make it worse, I'm trying my very best to change, and you're the last person that accepts that fact. I don't know what's your reason for all of this, but I hope you'll allow me to understand.

To make it worse, you had to step on my lipstud and make it have a much, much higher risk of infecting my lip huh? Once again, I don't know what's your reason for all of this, but I once had the thought of retailiating, but now I find it childish, because it's just not worth it.Maybe I can guess your reason, to humiliate me? To hurt me both emotionally and physcially? I don't know.

But then again, I recall our past memories and I'm really glad to once have you in my life. You must know this that, I once thought of us as forever, but now it seems impossible that we can even communicate. I know your heart is filled full of hatred with me, and the word sorry is the least thing you want to hear from me now. But please understand me that, I never wanted, nor expected this to happen this way. Maybe this post is a little too late, but I swear, this post is typed out with remorse and regret, none with anger. Because you taught me, anger and violence is nothing close to solving problems.

Too many a times, I hallucinate, I cry over the fact that I have not done enough. You made sense, any ordinary girl would have left knowing my kind of attitude. But however, when any other ordinary girl leaves, she would be easy to gain back, given my kind of attitude. To me,you are everything I'm not. So when you left for good, I know, it's impossible to make you mine again. Please, do understand where I'm coming from. As I have promised Chng, not out of fear, but of realisation, I'm going to change. But pride, falls before success.

All I want, is nothing. Nothing from you. Just your understanding, and your grace to allow me a chance to change and freedom, freedom to live freely. This post, I've thought of a long while whether to post it or not, and I think I should. It's not for your viewing pleasure or whatever, but it's for me, a mere blogger, to vent my daily anger and stress out.

I'm really really lost without you.

For this my brothers, you good bunch of fellows, whom I believe even Kang, who beat me, has forgiven and allowed me to change. Thanks for allowing me time.

Cousin, even though you don't say or show it, you have been the best cousin

in my 15 years of life. Thanks for sticking through me, and helping me

throughout every problem I encountered.

Yao, thanks, for constantly asking about my welfare and all,

I know, that among this group, you're the sweetest fellow I've ever met

(send girls go home all huh!)

Thanks, from that night in trouble, I experience, brotherhood.

Yicong, steady steady brother that sticks through every shit.

I don't know how to say it but, you also play a very important part in my life.

Even though I'm always "Yao and Mao Wei damn good" and all,

You're also very important.

Marvin, the cutest and most popular guy huh!

I know it's hard to compromise between brothers and future wives,

but, you've done pretty well alreadly.

Keep it up!

Alvin, Alvin,

the longest friend I've known compared to the group.

Can I say, we're still not that close as last year?

Thinking of our past 3 years, I'm really glad you were there.

Leng and Chng, last but not least.

The elders.

Just want you two to know, even though I know you guys won't believe much,

But I'm trying to change alreadly. Just give me time, and I'll show you what I can do.

I'm not doing this solely, I know.

Hey DJ,turn it up!

2007-04-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

So today, everything stupid happened at the Police Academy.We lost, therefore no half-day at school. Things are just getting suckier day by day.

As I face him tommorow, I don't know whether I should give in or give up. Seriously, call himself christian! HAHAH!

Honestly, I'm damn tired.Fucking fucking tired.

place you hand in mine, I promise we'll be good starting all over again.

remember me; as the boy I used to be

because I'm; now getting a new skin because of you.(:

stand by,it's the chameleon boy.

Nothing to lose;from nothing at all.

2007-04-14T03:31:00.000+08:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick,I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song I used to sing to you
At my home, do you remember
The stars;your eyes
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
And I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Becaues every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, what's your wish?
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
I know everything you wanted isn't anything I have.

You know it.That's more than enough.Friends still,I don't think that's ever possible,with the conflicts both of us ever had.You hate it,because you're afraid that people would misunderstand that I always put you at fault on this blog.I'm sorry.You're angry,because I make people misunderstand things on the way I speak towards you.I'm sorry.You're sad,because I always use words that don't mean a thing to you.You cry,when I broke your heart,far from the first.I'm sorry.Sorry for those mistakes,sorry for breaking your heart.Sorry for even starting this journey.

So today,I realised,what they said was true.No lovers,can ever be friends.No apology would ever be enough to replace the love I lost.

The queen of hearts,I just lost it.This match between the joker and the girl;the clown lost.

Circle of Trust.

2007-04-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

Ooooh,so my old but new computer's not that bad,with it lagging every now and then.Ahaha.Okay,whatever.Things were lucky,and good today.

-most of the guys stayed till 6a
-gonna get my ass kicked by Chng soon
-sleepy of late,(what's it,homones or what?!)

Tsk,still quite boring.Man I swear I need life to spice up like the last times! FUN PEOPLE NEEDED.:D

Tell me,honestly,do you notice I'm trying to change?And you're not helping by just looking.

Place your hand in mine;I'll leave when I wanna.

2007-04-12T11:16:00.000+08:00

This place was never the same after you came and went,how can said you make nothing indifferent to me.Remember your smile,maybe things'd get better after a while.

Okay,I'm back! After a month long of not getting internet.AHAHAH :D :D :D!

and your hands shake with goodbyes;and i'll take you back if you let me.

adapting.

2007-04-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

So, I'm emo-ed.

dont try to forget that feeling we had.

hey hey you you!

2007-03-31T02:22:00.000+08:00

Okay,things have been really really fun,this whole 2weeks.Sorry I haven't been blogging recently 'cause the computer had to crash on me.:D :D I'LL BE YOUR SLAVE IF SOMEBODY COULD GET ME WINDOWS VISTA XD! Pretty please I swear I need that really bad right now.

Relationship wise,I've been pretty much the same.Loving Dara has never been anything better than this.Baby,despite the shit that we've been through,I must say I love you more and more after each shit.:) Thanks for teaching me alot on how I should treat a girl,wait for me,I'll work on it,and prove you wrong MUAHAHAH! Ahah,I love you luh! <3!

Man,I'm so glad to have those brothers beside me right now,without them,I don't know how I'm going to settle any problems(not that Dara didnt help me (; ) But, like other problems,like outside problems with step gangsters.

Life couldn't have been any much happier! :)

Dara,sometimes you make me speechless.(:

If you're rich help me! :D

2007-03-24T03:45:00.000+08:00

OKAY FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK AND A THOUSAND FUCKS.Hello everybody! Apparently my computer and sadness caused from that is cause due to the crashing by some idoit viewing/downloading porn.:( IGGY I HOPE YOU FEEL RESPONSIBLE.

Okay,so the past few weeks were really great clubbing and all,somehow I don't really feel Solomon as the numbness is being created.Hmm maybe,it's all a new form of lifestyle.

Sisha was goooood today at Sahara,despite lil shit happening,I still had fun.Random fact:18ciggarettes=1 day of shisha.ahahah.

So apparently I'm here at Marvin's place now at 3.30am with Stella,Yvonne,and DEW AND OMG OMG I HAVE TO FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING MENTION DEWEY HAS FUCKING SMELLY FEET.I swear,how can anyone live with him?:D but oh wells Dewey,I love you still.

baby,I'll do whatever it takes,to keep this going.:)

together we'll surf the skies and seas.

2007-03-07T00:38:00.000+08:00

So,I spent friday+weekend with Dara! YAY she's now turning into a major camwhore hahaha! So on friday we went with Michelle to get her camera,and then Gashaus on sat,to Vivo on sun!
HURHURHUR SHOULD I GET A HAMSTER? I've got 1 when I was 9,but I'm afraid I won't have the time.Besides,Hansel and Gretel can't do,cause they'll feel sad when they end up with me,cause they were adbandoned.:) DARA.UNLESS,ahahah you'll raise them with me! AHAHHAHA

ROCK&ROLL BABEYE.

YEAH.
LELONG LELONG! where to?
let's ride!
I stand triumphant
the imaginary Os.
HAH! smoking kills but she makes me live.(:
stare somemore lah,burn you.
fuck fuck,the cops are here!

ROMP2@ St James Power Station 13th March!

craving for more after Romp?

Here's ROMP2!

13th of March,Tuesday

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Tickets contact Solo!@97561721!

Cheap Cheap! :D

pretty pretty you mean every much the world to me.

I got it back,I got it back!

2007-03-02T02:02:00.000+08:00

I'll let you pinch my nose a thousand times if you want! Censorship is importaaant!
cutie cutie my mama lovergirl!
pretty girl!

I've got simply 4 words,I've got her back. We can't keep losing and taking,you have to be mine.Permanently. :)

to make me feel stronger!:)

i love my ladies yup yup i love my bitch!

2007-03-02T01:33:00.000+08:00

muaacks!

shi sha is ownage.

meet Lydia my Boss!

meet twin #1! Shi Shaaaaa!
the act of cross-multiplication.

Okay,so I admit,HAHAHAH! smoking Shi Sha and going drinking has been the reason why I'm late or haven't been going.I swear it's FUN FUN FUN! wheee! TWINS! where the hell are you guys babeye,come back to me! :D :D

Si sha.

2007-02-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

Okay,so fun started out initially,with me deciding to take a break,cause I had some stuff to think about badly and school'll be a deadly distraction and cause me a mental headache.So,Iggy,Derik,Timothy and HanYong showed up and played mahjong with me and YES YES YES,for like,the first time in my life,I WON THE MOST KA CHINGS.I was literally,OWNING. :D :D HEHEHEH.okay,but then,it wasnt all me.80% was........DAAARAAA! for like,sending me the game so I can train train and train.ahahah.Then they left,so ao,Marvin,Keith,Ben showed up for second round,and once again,I OWNED.MUAHAHAHAH.ZOMG DARA YOU SO DESERVE A TREAT.

Then they left at 5.30,giving me like at 3hour break,till I had to go meet Lydia and friends.MAN,SI SHA? ahaha no kick luh,seriously,ciggarettes were better.ahaha.

I just can't forget this;but life has to move on anyways.btw,Twisteddknots spoke today,you going?

Now where's Hope?

2007-02-26T07:17:00.000+08:00

3 more days to our 4th month,and it eventually never came.Like a freak car accident it stops;just so abruptly.Like a drug,withdrawal symptoms are present and I don’t ever seem able to rid it.Both weren’t meant to be;I’m just shocked how you managed to stay happy.Okay,what’s important is just to accept it and let it go.Of course,this sounds easy,to me,like a disable,it meant learning on how to cope with the new life.

If you saw this was coming,why did you do stuff that made us happy?
If you knew this was expected,why did we even manage to stay that long?
If this is goodbye,I wonder what our next moves would be.
Goodbye,Dara.I wish you well,sincerely.

Ripped walls and torn letters;how did it ever come to this?

fucking hell,I just dont understand it.

2007-02-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you make me feel like I'm on top of the world,like nothing lesser really mattered.Now,look at the mess you've been into.

I don't really know what to do.Go,kiss the million guys waiting in line for you.

we'll let heaven and hell decide.

What a CNY.

2007-02-20T02:00:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's because I'm chinese that's why I'm adopting my "new year resolutions" on the Chinese Calender huh?Cause now I've vowed myself for something,which I dont really believe in doing,but will,which is to treat Dara with all that I can be.Hey woobie,dont worry so much okay? 1pm at town,just do that.:)

ANYWAYS,today was fun,but with me losing $16 while gambling,how can I be that happy?ahahah call me stingy,call me niao,or whatever.I'm just reallllllly realllllyyyyy feeeling the pinch.So I went to grandma's to collect the packets,which didnt really amount to alot,except for the "annual Ivy packet",which is quite alot.Then,I met Cong,to travel from Boon Keng all the way to Sengkang,then finally meeting Yao to go to Marvin's.

Things were greaaat there at Marvin's!With mahjong starting like immediately,I lost,again and again and again.Seriously,I need a pro to teach me and guide me and train me.I hate losing like some damn idoit.AHAHAH out of playing 4 days straight,I've only won 5times.yeah,outta 301293123=-193=19 games.

Seriously,I should consider opening a gambling den,open only to those that I'm close to.:)

Did somebody take your tongue?In worries of the words that you couldn't say, that you wouldn't save them from but i don't want to sleep without, so i bid to you, goodnight,tonight, sleep tight, my love

game!

2007-02-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

okay,so my previous days were spent trying to win at the 4sided square table,with mahjong tiles scrambling here and there.OMG I'M SO GLAD SOMEBODY TAUGHT ME HOW TO PLAY.AHAHAH,so me,Yao,Yicong and Marvin were very happy and contented playing mahjong,till Ben came and took away our happiness by winning every cent we've got(okay this one I'm exagerating,but at least 3/4! :( )

so my days were fun,went to town and got our clothes,till we had nothing to do,and decided to rush to my place for mahjong,HAH!

and can somebody teach me how to take my goddamm earings out?and how to wish people gong xi fa cai or something cause that's only what I know.AHAH

to those brothers out there,I'm so glad I've found you guys.(: ANYWAYS,A VERY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL YOU GUYS OUT THERE! ANGBAO ANGBAO ANGBAO!

hurting you was never my intention

All I need.

2007-02-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

Man,with the Common Tests like just breathing down my necks,and Valentines 2 days more to come,fucking hell I swear this is a major EQ test!

Nevertheless,with all help I can get,I found myself a tuition teacher that's like way cruel.Should I say,evil,ahahah,with constants mini-slaps on the back or arm whenever you're dozing off or not concentrating.THAT'S RIGHT FOLKS! It's no other than.....*Grammys Drumroll*......MS DARA TOH! ahahah whooooo!

Okay,btw,I got my ass a freaking Zen Neeon 2 babeye!And also,a Plasma and new soundsystem.I know,sounds like I'm bragging,but I'm not.I'M SIMPLY LIKE EXCITED.I LOVE MY DADDY. :D :D okay wtf.

My math notes.Courtesy of the greaaatest,evaaar!

thanks alot,lao shi/woobie/lover/my girl.(:

Anyways,can somebody tell me is History included in the subjects : Combined Humanities?And btw,err Benjamin if you're reading this,cause I can't get to you through your phone and yada yada,tell your family CNY venue's changed to my place,not mama alreadly.OOH LA LA SERIOUSLY I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR babeye! Because,CNY=$$$$$$$.Okay,now let's keep this thing a secret between me and you. ;)

to where we are

I've got a great idea!

2007-02-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

okay,I went out with Dara today,and we watched Happy Birthday.ahahah okay now I know Tiong is infested with lowly chao ah bengs and ah lians.But,I'll still kindly hug you from the back,to give you that comfy humpy hug.

a punch and two slaps;honestly,I loved it.:)

I study.:)

2007-02-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

Whoa,today's kinda good,with all my homework done,I'm finally turning into someone I dont know,AHAHAH,in a good way of course.

Thanks DARA,FOR HELPING ME WITH MY ENG COVER PAGE. :D :D :D LOVE YA LOADS!

I've got a recipe.

PSP ON SALE!

2007-02-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

sorry Psp.:( Okay,first off people,I'm really sorry to say I have to let my PSP go,so I'm giving him up,on sale!Blame it due to my hard-ups of fines and bills.Okay,PSP's going for $350 and above,okay details below:

PSP.

-Black

-Full box,with charger etc

-64mb memory card

-Free game included;Fight Night Round 3

-Less than 4months old

-Warranty still in use till 2008

-NO SCRATCHES

going at $350 onwards!

okay,Psp,since I hardly play with you,and I'm no hardcore gamer,I believe you'll be fine,in the hands of potential harcore gamers.:) BON VOYAGE

as you leave,will you need someone to wipe your eye.

Take back what belongs to you.

2007-02-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

wall of fame babeye! :)

OMG OMG MY FATHER IS A GENIUS.ahahah first he like,did my house goth,now he's done it into some arty farty clothes store.ahahah I love DADDY! wheeee. this is the first wall,more walls tommorow I promise! (cause he's doing them now,haw-haw)

So,things were going good last weekend,Dara stayed over,and we were camwhores again.AHAHA DARA IS A FUN-GODDESS.:)So on saturday night we went to Barsolina,and unfortunately this was one of the the bad clubbing experiences I had.Fake tickets,80%guys,dakl;sdjkzlhjlkz.But fortunately,there's this really pretty lady,that agreed to danced with me all night long.I wonder who that was huh,Dara?

This is a emo loner girl.

Books aren't all at libaries!I hArTzZ yOuzX wOrkzX AHAHHAEmo diesease is very dangerous.with some sepia tone lovin'
and the mordern day kiss.:)Role Model.Hello everybody! meet Dara the mosquito!Apparently female mosquitos are dominant over male ones.

Ahaha,so today was fun,went out with Jasmine to pay her back the money that I owe her.Then it was off to EXTREME MAKEOVER BABEYE! I swear,by sunday,you're gonna see a new Jasmine.:)MAN I'M GOING TO HOLLYWOOD BABEYE! Oh yeah Jasmine,better remember me when the phone get's noisy aight!Anyways,we had Billy Bombers before that,and man,SIRLOIN STEAK is sureeee greaaat! ahahah.It didnt just kamikazied our stomachs only,but our wallets and purse too.:( :( :(

So anyways,starting off ambitious,somebody once told me "There is no good and evil,there is only power,and those bold enough to seize it."

Power and glory is mine.

trying so hard not to look into your eyes;

2007-02-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

I SO SO SO SO MISS how life in 2005 was back then.No doubt,new enviroment,new friends,new religion,less maturity,less dressing style(AHAHA).But then I can say,I really experienced happiness.But in 2006/2007 I must also say I had my fun in life,with new brothers,new friends,new addictions and habits,and a good girl.What's my point?nothing actually,just reminising.AHAHA.

walking home today with Asip made me ponder upon many things I had done,past,future,present.Thinking to myself as I sat beside the river today,I thought,if I could proclaim so much about my love life,the same should go for religion.Besides,it's also love.Just on a much higher,happier and just,POWER LAH,basis.

So today was good,I had some idoit coming over to help me spray a F.S.A.S template on my wall,to having the wall full of gold stains and ugly handprints.fuck you Nick.ahahha,nevertheless,thanks.

I know this is not what you deserve.

let's just kill the drama huh?

2007-01-31T01:43:00.000+08:00

SO SO SO,today was really goood.I had freeeeee tution at Harbourfront,with Dara of course.Okay,since you guys know it's her,should know it's a VIOLENT and HARD tuition huh? BUT BUT I still love it.:)Then we went to Vivo for dinner at BK,then chilled out,at our usual spot again.:)ahahah,seriously,this has got to be one of the best times at Hb huh?

let's just kill the drama! go to sleep let's talk tommorow.

So I lift my head a little higher.

2007-01-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

okay,so I went down to the catch the game against Kent Ridge today at CCAB.AHAH,seriously,I'm like so so so comfortable with the team,I should try out for Manager,or even Coach huh! ahahah kidding Alvin!

you know blog,it's really fucked how just 24hours,or even less could change everything.well almost everything.you suggested a infinite hiatus,but have you thought how great the damage it'll cause to both?

can't you see the heart?it's the saddest thing it's ever been

Some things never change.:)

2007-01-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

Wow.I'm super duper shocked at what my home has become.40mins ago,I reached home shocked to find dark purple curtains hanging all over my home,after the new grey walls that my dad has given to this house 3 weeks ago.I SWEAR HE'S TURNING BLK 114 Potong Pasir #**-*** into a goth home.He's turning gothic I swear.

Ahaha,so earlier on,in the day,I met Jasmine,which I havent seen for like,4 years.So we hit Citylink,Suntec,Marina to shop and get stuff,which only ended up in me saving up for another $179.Okay,so we went to watch Gridiron(YESISPELTITCORRECTLYTHISTIME) Gang for the second time.well,Jasmine PER-SUA-DED.(look I used the word persuaded.)Since we had time to kill,I reluctantly-but-kindly-due-to-my-kind-nature agreed .After the movie,and countless nags of her telling me she's gonna get the vcd and my sister calling asking if she could use the pc,we went to Cine and ate at Kobayashi and attempted to take the secret SBS bus.Be jealous folks,it ends by 7feb!So on the way to PS to get the bus,we saw a converse limited ed high cut babeye@ $179! fuck.:( :( AHAH,but we couldnt,cause I dont think Sundays have that.And Jasmine was TOO TOO TOO impatient to go home.but alas,today was really fun.Jasmine,today really felt so normal,like those times we used to hang last time huh?except for the hot-bod me lah.AHAHAH kidding man.WHOO HOOO I'M GONNA GET A CHAFFEUR SOON!

So now,I have to figure out how am I supposed to get $39.90+$39.90+$79.00+$179.00=$340.

Zara top-$39.90

Topman top-$39.90

Topman Skinny's-$79.00

Converse high cut DeathorGlory limited ed-$179.00

HOW TO GET THAT MOOLAH-PRICELESS.

DARA!read twisteddknots.AND I THINK I KNOW WHY I COULDNT TAKE THE BUS

ALREADLY.it only appears when both parties love each other alot.SERIOUSLY,everybody there wasnt alone,there was family,best buds(whysheneversendyouthepicsia!),and us.:)

in everything I do,I think about you.

bestest bus ride;with the bestest girl.

2007-01-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

WHOO HOO.OMG OMG.Today,I swear,25th January '07.I could never forget! ahahah,fancy spending suprises and laughter and nites sneaking into her place and city link on tues,then skipping school on thurs to spend the whole evening out getting a Batman&Joker lego set and getting into a PIMPED,NOKIA SBS BUS.ahahah yes,SBS.seriously,waaaay coool,with the bartender there,and comfy pimped seats,cool music,and a happy bus driver,with sociable people and most importantly;Dara,WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG?! AAHAHAH,oh I wish this keyboard could just tell the world what today meant to me.:D :D

Dara,thanks for spending happy moments with me,and everlasting times together.

acting drunk. now that's drunk.AHAH
tigger bit me on the tram.
tigger2 strikes back.RAWR!
no,actually,I'm kinda friendly.AHAH
"hey! I'm friendly too!"
where's our drinks?

super cool escalator kid.:)

NOW BELIEVE IT.THIS IS A SBS BUS.FOR SPECIAL PEOPLE.
lifestyles of the rich and famous.PIMP MY SBS BUS.
yes,for the 123912091time,this is a SBS,PIMPED bus.
who's that stalker hurhur
LOLLIPOPS LOLLIPOPS!

Geisha momma!(okay random)
the new 2007.
why I can't sleep sometimes.:)
talent for escaltorboarding.
I would have given my life for her.

to make the best count.

2007-01-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

hello friends! sorry for not updating on my whereabouts and status(OH SORRY FOR THAT MUCH GRIEF AND WORRY CAUSED AHAHA).So,I've been like lazing around and hanging with Dara for that 3 days.ROCKASS BABEYE,ROCKASS.:D

okay,so on monday we caught Gridon(howeveryouspellitsomebodypleasecorrectme) Gang and half of One Last Dance,by sneaking in at Causeway.WTF IT'S LIKE,the most easiest place to crash ever.

So on tuesday,we went to Citylink and Cityhall to go shopping.AHAH APPARENTLY SHE CANT SHOP WITH ME.Okay,so I've got this new current NEEDS.yes,NEEDS.

-Zara Tee $39.90 (is it Dara?)

-Topman Tee $39.90

-Topman Skinny's $79.00

AHAH,okay now,here's a shoutout,to my brothers allll.:D I LOVE YOU GUYS.eh Yicong,must tell me how's friday and saturday okay? LEON MY PRETTAYE BOY BABYEYE.

all we have at the end of this game;is a lonely road out.

dirty mud and wooden floorboards.

2007-01-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

ahaha.:) camp was good.except for Yvonne,fight,wooden floorboards,dirty toilets and mud,and little food,and missing her.:D AHAHAH (dontcallmeasissyeveryoneiscomplainingalso).

AHAHA so yesterday was fun,went shopping with Cousin,Andria,Fabian,Iggy and gf(SORRY I FORGOT YOUR NAME ): ) TOPMAN,TOPSHOP.THE SHOP IN FAREAST.oh babeye,you're all mine.:)

I couldnt ever spend a single day without just thinking of you.

Treat her to be the best I can be.:)

2007-01-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

HOHOHOHO.KING SOLOMON is back.:D okay,sorry for the M-I-A this whole week.Stuff's been really happening and I didnt really have time to blog.AHAH shit about school,shit about hormones changing and feeling fucked,just sit and cry? nah,I aint that shitbag.I prayed,I trusted,believe me.:)

YAAAY! HAD UNIFORM DAY TODAY! not those stupid annual cca day,was fun with BABY! :D:D ahahah refer to photos.yeaps,life isnt all about spending money money and money.It's also about you huh. :)

AHHHHH FUCKAKLSJL:AJSAJK! I've got camp for 2days tml.:(:(:( Sleeping conditions=dreadful. I swear,we'll be sleeping on tents,on muddy ground with just a stupid wooden plank.AHAHAH but then again,quite shiok huh?water-bed.AHAHAH.

okay people,MIA till Friday!

P.S EH DANIELLA,ahahaha sorry about all the lame confusion and shit okay? AHAHAH I LOVE YOU STILL COUSIN.:D CONFIRM,FRIDAY.:D

She screams when I'm away
I've been gone before
I worried all the time
Why worry anymore

Now I go,away
Now I know,today

I can't remember anything;where will I be tommorow,where will I be next year?

Q)why does she even wear stc uniform out? ERRRR she's weird right! :D

I miss today alreadly :)

baah!

2007-01-09T08:30:00.000+08:00

okay,to cut things short,I'm sick.:( :( :(.Urghhh my body's like,so fucked.I don't really know what to do.I tried not smoking for like,5days?In the end,this is what my body has to offer hurhur.LACK OF TOBACCO&NICOTINE&TAR HUH? so,to all little kids,this is what I have to say,don't even start.:)

okay,school yesterday was kinda good.HOHOHO.guess what everybody,I swear even the nerds wouldnt be able to believe this.SOLOMON IS THE NEW CHAIRMAN OF 3N3 BABEYE! ahahah hohohoh *gives self-salute and evil laughter.* okay,first things first,relax 3n3,etc Jerome,Shah,Veira,Supree blah blah blah.AHAHAH you know Solomon,confirm gurantee + chop,sure take care of you all one! :D :D

I hate my new history teacher.He discriminates,he can't speak singaporean english(cause he's a freaking frenchman),and he doesnt allow us to call him sir.(wants us to call him dr).He's so fucked,nobody seems to be listening to what he has to teach/say.

to all leaders,I'm the King!

control ye emotion,lest the ships sinks.

2007-01-07T09:11:00.000+08:00

my school is getting smarter,more clever,and more high-tech.AHAHAH,remember the sneak-in-at-3am incident with Nick to swim last year?yeah,apparently the camera caught us.Oh,btw,DAMN ITS NOT THE ONLY TROUBLE I'VE HAD WITH CAMERAS.some idoits,(Jerome&Shah),were like,smoking at "hidden places" at school,never expecting to get caught,until friday,when the OM taking the bus saw.AHAHAHHA.so UNEXPECTEDLY,they slipped the ciggarette casing into my pocket,and after the bag check,vola!

Hmm,thinking of it,I dont think I want to be 21 anymore.You get the risk of jail(J-A-I-L),the agony of taking responsibilies,and starts to owe the goverment money 24/7.Also,the oh-so-compulsory NS is waiting for you huhhuh.

for me,I wished 18 was forever time would stay,forever with her.:)

all this emotions runs deep as oceans exploding.

2007 isnt really really good.

2007-01-05T00:54:00.000+08:00

Okay,school was smooth,managed to smugle in the roots of hair on my head past 8hours today.:D AHAHAH,I'm pro-ded.

Fuck.alk;sdjasl;kdhaskldh.They extended my probation due to some misbehaviour shit till May?June?July?

I dont really know what's happening,you always seem to be comparing;comparing and comparing.I dont get it,you now judge.

ohhhhh,screwed.

oh to hell with schoool!

2007-01-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

pfffft! to think I actually was a little excited for wearing long pants and bossing the lower secs around.School really sucks.Speaking from somebody that hasnt caused any trouble and is judged based on his past records,I think the school is totally biased.TOTALLY.

First off,does the school have any right to isolate those so-called "rebels" or "deliquents" from the traditional morning assembly?(not that I want to go,but still!)And picking you off randomly and embarrasing you doesnt help a damn bit.
I hate the fact that they think we are actually showing a bad example to the school by our behaviour and eloquence? ERRR NOT? I believe the "rebels" or "deliquents" they call,try to hide ourselves in order not to be seen by the teachers that claim to be oh-so-holy! PLUEESSE.
OMG.WHAAAT HAS HAPPENED TO SINGAPOREAN KIDS NOWADAYS.MAAAN.I swear,by each year,kids are getting more and more childish.Please kids(youguysdonotdeservetobeinsecondaryschoolsiswear),your MOMMMA,or PAPPA do not have to come to school to see you off to your class eh.Primary 1 still isit?

Okay,I'm sorry people,the reason why I'm so snappish today is because of my dearest oh-so-precious hair.AHAHAH.I swear,I repeat,I claim,I emphasize,I stress,I DID FREAKING CUT MY HAIR.urghh! anyways it's just so childish to be ranting out my hair nonsense here.oh wells school,you want trouble?you've got it biaaatch.AHAHAH.

cursing & swearings apparently doesnt seem to be doing the trick.

2007.

2007-01-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

Help dear,I'm lost.okay,the last day of 2006,and first day of '07 was spent at Sentosa tenting and paaartying with baby,with more mysteries left unsolved,I dont know how 2007 is going to be fun.

ahah,dont really feel like blogging today,partly cause I've got difficulty trying to adjust my sleeping habits back to the school-ish ways,and am reaaally feeling damn f-ed!

AHAHAHA,OH YEAH,YANG,WHERE'S MY MOOLAH? 31st over alreadly know boy!

Suck our...LOLLIPOPS!

HELLO! MY NAME IS DARA.AHH! WRONG TRAIN TO ZIMBADWE(whereverthatis)!!I'm never talking to you unless we reach Singapore-again.From up here the city lights burn,like a thousand miles of fire. Carlsberg Tower.-Probly the best tower in S'pore.

Carlsberg tried to waste me.HUR HUR.

Cause I've got you.:)Ooops!Okay,here you go girl!Oh Carlsberg Tower,take us sky high,mighty fine!2007,I'm gonna rock you topsy-turvey!She makes every single little thing about life fun.How to start a new year.:) :) :)

She hates it when I smoke.

2007 prepare for King Solomon.(hawhawhaw)

2006-12-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

Coffeeshop Nite 'o6.Maaan,my performance was a blast! :D :D. Well,it wasnt all 100% me.It's like,99%-Him.1%-me.Ahahah,the art of doing serving.:D

MAAAAAN,with time flying like,dkasdeasjldklasjasdosjauber-fast,it's like 2007's like in 2 days time.PFFFT. :D to those who're like happy and excited. :D too! to those who feel the same ways like me,ahahaha 'cause I'm not really happy about 2006,therefore the fear for 2007.:( oh wells,prayer.AHAHAH.

Happy stuff about 2007.:D
-LONG PANTS! (i'vefreakingwaited2yearsforthis)
-3 more years to clubbing ( last year was 4)
-more friends?
-another day to live&learn.

-CNY! :D :D show me the moolahs!

Bad stuff about 2007.

-3more years to NS.(omgmyhair!)

-312920912-3919 years to responsibility.:( :( :(

-N,O levels in like,1/2 years.

-another year of dissapointments,anger,hatred?(urhhh,hope not!)

AHAHAH,no resolutions people! after 2years of making them and not fulfilling any,(NOT EVEN A SINGLE ONE I SWEAR) I've decided not to believe in that.

Okay,2007,here I come.

platform 9 3/4.

You're my feet when I can't move on.

2006-12-29T04:07:00.000+08:00

AHHHH! I don't think I'll make it through the nite. Seriously,the song Surrender is just killing me.Like,totally not what I've expected singing to be.Nevertheless,I'm really happy,'cause I'm actually serving-again.In a way I've really found back what I'm believing in,and am really amazed.:)

To the people back at church,thanks for not judging me.I know what I'm doing,and I'll kick that soon.Just more,time.

OKAY! OKAY! So how does it feel to be MIA-ED during the Chrismas Season? Hmm,let's just say I've saved up quite abit on the gift of giving to people I dont really like.:D :D

It's not even MIA I guess,with DARA right beside me all the time.Baby,31st DEC!!! WHOOO HOOOO!

And and,since it's the season of Thanksgiving,I guess I'll take time here.
To,
-God,all your endless blessings and promises and paths of roads you've set for me and everybody,your blessings.:)
-DARA!-I dont want to mushy here,but how can I possibly live without you?Thanks for showering every single itchy bitsy bit of love on me.:D
-Marian,thanks for believing in me.and letting me sing for Marc's band.

I'll rise with you in the wake of the morning

I'll walk with you in the cool of the night

and every single day I'm devoted to your ways

Only yours; Only yours

'Cause when I'm weak,you are strong

You're my feet when I can't move on

You are the light in the dark

You're the whiser inside my heart.

I surrender all to you.:)

Btw,just want to say a very HAPEE BIRTHDAY to JASMINE! and EVELEEN!

so hurry down the chimey tonite!

2006-12-24T11:51:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHH X'MAS eve is like,today.I mean,time passed so fast,2007's like 7days from today,and I didnt really fulfil my resolution(ohisohateresoulutions),instead made everything worse.

AND JGKL:HJAKLS:JSLDKJASLJ:! I lost my post due to crashing.FISH!

anyways,bad hangover,didnt turn up for rehearsal at church,but thanks to the people there for gracias to give me the grace not to.I hope I wont be expecting any more scoldings on this very happy day.ahahahah.

Eve @DXO was greaaat! everything was PURRRFECT.even if it wasnt,Dara was there to make everything perfect,with just her presence. <3 <3 how can I possibly live life without her!

All I want for christmas,IS NOT YOU,but my 2gpsp MEMORY CAAARD!

I wish upon a star,and trying to believe

and even though it's far,

you'll find your Christmas here.

I guess that Santa's busy,'cause he never comes around

I think of him,when Christmas comes to town.

The best time of the year;when everyone comes home

with all the Christmas here,it's hard to be alone

putting up the Christmas tree and friends will come around

so much fun when Christmas comes around!

Presents for the children,wrapped in Red and Green

all the things I've heard about,but never really seen

When Santa's sledge is near;I listen all the time

The harold angels sing;I never hear a sound

And all the dreams of children;whose life will all be found

That's all I want for Christmas.

No one will be sleeping on the nite of Christmas eve;hoping Santa's on his way

so glad I came.

2006-12-21T03:48:00.000+08:00

ooooh carolling with the church,like I've been 1year ago.AHAHAH no doubt,fun and high,but missing out was people like Jerome and Fabian I missed.Like,we were all goody goody shoes last year,but AHAHAHAHAH what has happened? ooohh mystery there.

ahahaha,okay readers,one thing I'm really quite tired(or rather ashamed) is that people asking me what I've learnt in TMT,because they dont see me applying it.Okay,I really need to make you guys understand(not that it's a must,but I'm just clearing the air) that I dont really think it is so much possible FOR ME to really apply what I've learnt there,because mainly of peer pressure and distractions along the road.But alas,I can still tell myself I did Him proud by showing how his love can actually touch and inspire someone.:)

I think we should all give MarianPoon the official photo salute! KUDOS to all your consistency in the photos and stuff girl!Seriously,those in favour of salute,please goandsaythankyoutoher.:)

CASSANDRA! I MISSED YOU! I SO FREAKING DO! okay,welcome back darling.If you're reading this,WE NEED TO CATCH UP BAD,can sense we're drifting ah!

OKAY HAPPY SUBJECT! CHRISTMAS IS 4days AWAY! AND HERE ARE MY WANTS!

A 2gb psp memory card!

$300 FOR MY OWN CHRISTMAS SHOPPING.:D

A new mp3(I LOST MINE SAKJSKLDASO)

oh look,I'm not that materlistic,my wants arent that bad,

and Santa Santa,sure I've been a good good boy this year.:)

Oh Momma!

Sister! So thankful for the 2years of happy friendship! :)

OOOOH our hot,marvelous,pretty oh-so-cool photographer!

I swear this wasnt the effect of any alcohol.shhhh.I DONT CARE,SUKI/SAKAE SUSHI!

how this felt exactly 1 year ago,what happened to the innocence my dear boy?

I know all the right things to say.:)

DARA IS GREAT.:D

2006-12-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY! Dara's the best girl on this planet earth.:D You tell me,who would so painstakingly take time to actually go and create a blogskin so fast,less than 2 hours? (AND IT'S LIKE GREAT)

urgh,things are like sucky this morning alreadly.It's like,the morning rush even though it's 2pm?! wth? to top it all off,I have to go see probation officer in like what,my carolling clothes?! AHAHAH freak he'll probly think I'm a clown or something.Man,no transport=sweating like pig.

And baby,even though our schedules are like,all messed up,I still want to spend every minute of x'mas with you.:)

shake that thing now

The rain cant stop us.

2006-12-19T01:06:00.000+08:00

Shopping with Dara ahahah,well she found it unproductive.I didnt.:D Freaking hell,obviously someone wants to break us up,by showering seas of rain,and oh oh oh TENTING TOMMOROW PLEASE!

Ahaha,so yeah,did something damn dumb.Was walking home,then I just kneeled and sat in the rain.DARA'S FAULT! go and put the stupid chasing cars in my psp.AHAH. oh somebody shower sympathy pleaaaase.

MEOW MEOW.

never ever,ever do drugs.

Oh babeye hug me!

ultra sweeeetness right? AHAH apparently not.

smile for me baby.

where's my damn zippo?!

highness on high.

if you can't stop the rain,join the rain.

I'll wait I'll wait till you finally fall from grace.

2006-12-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

Day at Vivo spent today,urgh ahahah found the shirt,lost the money.:( :( :( oh somebody sponsor me with $69 PLEAYSEEEEEE :D :D :D ahahha so had freaking dificulty finding the stupid pacific coffee place and to top it,some girl had to play with me hide&seek in the carpark.AHAH.

BABY! I so CANT CANT CANT wait till 19dec.AHAH I bet we're gonna have loads of fun,regardless the area of where we are,see,3 places want us there.:)

asdasdsjadkla;secasdlkajsdjasdla.
Christmas is coming,and I so havent got shopping presents to the people who so rightfully deserve 'em.Oh Solo,prepare for a wonderful bashing down from 25dec onwards.:( :( :(

MAYBE I should really be going MIA-ing.

it's calm before the stars.

lose myself in your eyes;

2006-12-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

I MISS THAILAND!
and I bet I'm not the only person who feels that way.:)

speaking of Mission,I really experienced the comfort of God and being intimate with Him.I can proudly say I've become really matured and had experienced happiness in that land.(IN THAT LAND.)

of course,Mission would be lonely without the TEENS&YOUTH and my DAILY LETTERS from Dara.:D :D :D

of course,special thanks to;

GLEN LIANG!

oh what fun we had about growing in God together

and the gossiping huh!

and how close we really could be(ibeteventhepeopleinSingaporewouldbecallingusgay)

and I hope we'll still be as close in Thailand as now.:)

ANDREW CHUA!

ahaha thanks for the daily nite devotion messages

and little care and corncerns like washing my utensils!

HAHA!

and also to the little arguments we had that really brought us closer.

URICA LIANG!

hmmmmmmmmm

can I really say we've gotten to know each other

damn damn damn much closer?

with the dogs and empty dead streets!

and our little diets.

AHAHAHA

JASMINE TAN WEI QI!

that silent stare that you know

is about to errupt into a

violent,painful,unexplainable PINCH!

ahahah besides that,

thanks for the company and little comforting words you gave

and TRYING TO PUSH AWAY THE FACT YOU STILL OWE ME LUNCH/DINNER

@ NYDC.when when when??

ahahah still,I love you.:)

JASPER CHIANG TONG TONG CHIANG TONG CHIANG!

asda;djasdjasdad

our teens&youth leader.
I can promise you without you taking control of discipline

HEHEHEHE God knows what I'll do.

thanks for that talk we had,and your words of encouragment.

MALIAAN!

nice photos,ALL OF EM!

I salute you!

who can actually study while doing Mission in Thailand?

MAARIAN!

ps.nice photo shots I'll publish a few here later okay?

Uncles James

thanks for giving me the waterboy post huh!

and taking goood care of me,

and giving me the wrong impression that you're a monster,you're actually not that bad luh!

(ahaha I know you're not gonna see this,so someone help me tell him okay?)

Georgia

though we havent really talked,I must say you're one helloutta a pretty girl.:D

Kathy

ahahah thanks for blackmailing me with you adulterous pictures and smectum advertisements.:D :D

last but not least.......

GOD!

thanks for sending everybody down to enjoy with me.:D

thanks for the countless and unseen blessing and promises you've showered on us

thanks for encouraging me with random thoughts and music.:D :D :D

so,yeah,even though it's my first time,I really enjoyed it,and MIGHT be coming back for more.:D

oh God between fast paced lives and living it slowly

sympathy;will get the best of me.

2006-12-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

I dont really think I'm in the blogging mood for now.So long readers,expect love soon! :)

sympathy;is that what you're giving me?

Gone for the moment.

2006-11-27T03:08:00.000+08:00

The whole truth and nothing but the truth
Stop me if you've heard this one before
The whole truth is nothing but a good excuse
So long as you don't torture me with my past
Let's be honest; a secret silenced is a secret safe

Thailand,Thailand,Thailand.
Well every hour on the hour
You have to, you just have to trust me
Whoever I was then,
I can't ever be again

Reminders, they are not reluctant
So please stop me if you've heard this one before
Sideways blinders,
I can't find a way around..

The faith you found I never felt
The terror held in wedding bells
And comfort in there's no one else
The truth be told I'm never gonna know

OK OK OK.FINALLY,I'm leaving for mission trip in like,3hours.I don't know why,I dont quite feel secure.Packed bag,brought passport( YES GUYS THIS TIME I BROUGHT IT I SWEAR),read bible,got 15letters,and I'm still,in a sense,scared.

Maybe,it's not just the Holy Ghost that I need,I still crave for something deep,deeper.

cinamons sweets under your tongue

meow.

2006-11-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

She screams when i'm away

She's been gone before.
I worry all the time, why worry anymore
Now I go, away
Now I know, today

I picked out your star
Turned night to day
A simple whisper from your voice
And I fade away
You wish for love
You pushed me away
Your love for me was everything I need
The air I breath

She, now she's all alone
Her eyes they drown in tears
Their love was meant to last
But she is blind with fear

I'm scared all the time,why be scared anymore?I really hate those people who think their God and really overeact to everything.What's wrong with posting up my baby and I's photos,even kissing? this is 2007 alreadly! come on! not like those 1965 shits! when you're all so conservative.I'm not saying it's wrong being conservative,but PLEASE,YOU WANT CONSERVATION,KEEP THEM TO YOURSELF.I PREFER BEING OPEN TO SOCIETY.

urgh,so anyway,I'll lock my blog.I really hate it,dont always use the Church as an excuse,you hate me personally,dont ya?I'm just so sick of people like you,lashing out punishments and scoldings,just because you think you know what's right for me.

come get me,I'm waiting.

fizzle at the airport,babeye!

2006-11-24T03:57:00.000+08:00

We're all eyes and in my personal opinion
We're not all you were hoping for
When you say my name
You said it like a curse

We'll die if we're not

In our courts of conscience life is lies

Lies are life

But don't lie to me

You're just chasing shadows

Show us some heart, confess your sins

We'll sing with eyes closed
And you can tear us apart but you won't break the skin
Just put on your face and do that shit you do your entire life.

Changi Airport;Viewing Mall.ahahah we spent like,5-9.30 there i think.AHAH,fun,oh yeah,it's 62 now.I hoped you felt me taking you back,on the train.:)

Oh yeah,that idoit trying to screw things up with my baby,please accept this kind invitation to just buzzzz off,or receive a harsher warning(cause I dont think sluts/bastards/etc like you will ever learn,dont you?)
You can have the kingdom, you can have the crown, But you won't have the people. No, we'll see you down.

Momo instead.MoS sucked.

2006-11-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

Bleed these colors open wide
Burning blues from butterflies
Tonight we fly
Flying faster through the night
Until the orange of morning light
Dear goodbye.

I know it's hard to make this work
When you're all alone
And I've been waiting for so long
To hold you in my arms
Embrace forever my sweet girl

Water fills these open eyes
Still frames and valentines
Won't keep me in her mind

Don't forget to write
Your name inside of my life

URGH! ahah,MoS was a dissapointment.Got bounced,like first time in my life.Retarded bouncer,I swear he's one hell of a sialan guailan whatever lan bouncer.

So,Momo instead.AHAHAH,whereee all rejects went! AHAH kidding kidding.Momo was fun,got like,every single minute with my baby,and it's worth it!

You are the ghost of everything that I'm not and I want to be

Healthy in paranoid times

2006-11-21T03:28:00.000+08:00

hLooks like the holy ghost is gone
Now your afraid of yourself
Over your shoulder you have to watch
Heaven fall into hell
Looks like your boat's about to sink .
So it's time to prepare
Even the angels are losing sleep
And the sidewalks are bare

It's like the calm before the storm
You better swim
Just like it's cold before it's warm
You'll get back here again
I'll wait,wait,wait,
Till you fall from grace,
And it's calm before the storm
It's there,then it's gone.

Oh it looks like the war was in your head
Not your heart
Just when you think it's figured out
Well it all falls apart

Met Dara yesterday.ahahah we're finally like,WHOOT! eh,I dont think I want to go today, but friends says it'll be IMPOSSIBLE to get in.:(

ahah,oh wells.I'm still excited for the party today! ahahaha.cant wait,DANIEL VS JASON.ahahaha I hope Daniel LOSES.AHAHAH that's for all the sacarstic remarks,and bullying you gave Daniel.:D

I want to;she wont let me

still they stay together.

2006-11-17T02:30:00.000+08:00

I never bite off more than I can chew,
But then she came and bit me
But then she bit my leg
She said "don’t wanna work I wanna play and live my life like it was Sunday!"
"The only problem is that Sunday only comes now once a week and I'm a freak but..."

We're breaking up the city,
No time to waste away
So tell me why should we stay,
A prisoner of today

My body's tired, my souls excited and I wish that I was gifted,,
She said "I wanna run, I wanna hide, and leave this place just like it left me"
"The only problem is I need to find the balls to follow through and that's the truth but..."

fuck,I'm starting to,have what they call,the HOLIDAY FUN.can't wait,SURGE@MOS,21th. $20 per ticket,contact my baby,DARA for more details.

your death was such a shame

love me or hate me.

2006-11-16T02:17:00.000+08:00

Everyone's a let down
It just depends on how far down they can go
In every circle of friends there's a whore
The one who flirts
And does a little more
But who's to say?
This is a social scene anyway
And everybody wants to explore the new girl
Caught up in her own hard liquor world
But God doesn't exist in my world

And if you lie you don't deserve to have friends
If you lie you don't deserve to have them

You are a sell out
But you couldn't even do that right
So your price tag has been slashed
And now you're chilling on a half priced clearance rack

The social scene where she gets her fix
Has been broken since 2004
Now just look at that social clique
Do you really wanna be a part of it?
Let's not let us forget
Where she gets the habit
She gets the pills from her skills
And just look at that clique
Do you really wanna be the star of it?

ahah,6months without living a holy life alreadly.how do I feel?how bad have I became? One word;nothing.seriously.ahahah I've felt like I've not changed a damn bit ever since that day I've decided to release the Holy Spirit.Life isnt so bad after all,look at all non-christians! ahaha it's the same.I know you guys are gonna tell me,my afterlife(oh something like that) would be in hell.ahahah oh wells,I believe I'm born bad.:)

enough of religious shit,I dont want pastors knocking on my door.:D ahahah so today was spent with Dara,cutting my hair to a oh-so-semangat style at clippers. SIALAN sia.AHAH then I sent her to work,watching the beautiful scenery at Mount Faber,then with the night lights and music there.Nice ice cream you scoop my dear! So,Fabian came along,we went for dinner at Harbourfront,then to like meet the rest at town.I guess this is what holidays are for huh.:(

SOMEBODY INSERT THE WORD FUN INTO ME :D

Maybe I'll go,get a growth pill,grow BIG BIG BIG,OLD OLD OLD.and club every single nite,shop at day.WHAT LIFE.:D but I guess this doesnt happen in Singapore.

to forgive myself for giving up on you.

just get dressed while you do this.

2006-11-15T01:50:00.000+08:00

We're gonna die like this you know,
miserable and old
Really gotta hand it to you,
Are you positive? Absolutely sure?
Well just get dressed, don't do this,

Spend the night late listening to emos
Said it makes you wanna fall in love
or be smart enough to keep your distance
You can't decide, you never did.

It's a long way back there
And to where I belong
Well yeah you've been there once or twice
And you still dont like it
I say you just never gave it a chance
Well give me a chance, give me a chance
Besides did you ever stop to think
That we can keep this up, living like thieves?

Graah.I feel all tired and miserable with the withdrawal symtoms baby gave me.It's like,another 23901237812903812-1293=193-12380129371290328 HOURS MORE EH.ahahah.

Things were fine today,had training,from like 3pm-nite.Ahahah I dont even know which flight is my plane can.:( oh wells,ANOTHER 2 MORE WEEKS.:D

21st Nov,Surge. :D
27nov-10dec,Thailand Mission Trip.
11dec,Travis hairstyle babeye!

clever is a general word
while always showing that she's hurt,
but never wrong she's never wrong
it takes a lot to make the end
it takes a lot of smart thinking

and she shows off her skill
right as she takes it all
out of her hat you make sure that it's real
and it's all you thought you had and now you're scared
and now you're scared.

Get my message across.

2006-11-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

Lights out and my seat back
as far as it will go
Casting shadows like statues
I'm right outside your window
Theres no such thing as second chances
Theres no such thing don't bother to explain

Your so beautiful

Did you hear a word I said

I guess this is what I get

We trust and believe so easily
In words they speak we seek security
In one another but theres no way to cover this
And these tragic nights and afternoons wreak disaster
And I can still feel you as if you were in the room
Where did our story end where did it start
I buried you along with my heart

Entertain me and tell me "it didn't mean anything"
It's vengeance worth my tolerance and
I could be careless but
I promise you'll feel everything

I've straightened out my thoughts.I love Dara.:D seems like,your always there for me,eternity,with my brothers.

I'm just gonna get past that 2weeks,unscatted,unharmed and carry on living life the way I planned.

Dara,I can't wait for that trip to aussie.

A beautiful girl can make you dizzy,like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning.

fuck them.

2006-11-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain,
The red flag waving never meant the same,
The kids of tomorrow don't need today,
When they live in the Sins of Yesterday.

Well I've never seen us act like this,
Our only hope is in minds of kids,
And they'll show us a thing or two.

Our only weapons are the guns of youth,
It's only time before they tighten the noose,
And then the hunt will be on for you.

Like the smallest bee packs a sting,
Like the pawn checkmates a king,
We'll attack at the crack of dawn.

Build a ladder if there's a wall,
Don't be afraid to slip and fall,
Speak for yourself or they'll speak for you.

fuck them lah.their really not worth my anger,not worth my time,and even a sentence to them.Well,if you didnt want me there,why invite in the first place? don't give me that shit that it's my fault again.FUCK YOU ALL,it's NEVER MY FAULT.I'M NEVER WRONG.well,why am I thinking that way? cause that's the way you guys think all the time.

oh yeah,to that girl,hypocrite is just your favourite subject huh." btw. "sick, cannot go church but can go out." - wads ur take on this? possible reasons are like felt better so go out. but still. I, marian, is becoming to be more by-the-book. " My take? well I just thought Christians do not judge,oh well,it's the bunch of you guys.And oh yeah,SAY ONLY LUH,SCARED WHAT,COCKROACH BITE AH! it's damn retarded pussies like you want to diss that person,but is afraid to disclose the name.Don't be fuckers and say you're not referring to me.First judge Andrew,now what,Me.

And yeah,since you people judge,I'm sick,and I was feeling better after that.Get that slut?

Like a fire,
Don't need water,
Like a jury,
Needs a liar,
Like a riot,
Don't need order,
Like a madman,
Needs a martyr

we made it happen;now we got to make it last.

2006-11-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

I just found a friend,
In one of your lies.
To treat me so nice,
I, can't believe my bones
When they say,
So many things
They tell me I am fine,
believe me,I tried

Ever so sweet,
You make this seem,
The way things go
It's not my fault.
And I'll miss you so good
All of those nights,
We lost our way back home.

You baked it in muffins for me.
were you left behind,
It hurts my teeth
Bring in the past with the postcards you sent for me
Every line,
It brings me right back down.

Had the nite out with Dara.And now I'm sick.Maybe it's lovesick huh? ahahah. Thanks baby,for enjoying the nite,houses and food with me.:)

No one will ever take you away,cause you belong to me.

Mission Trip in 2weeks.May God bless me to survive this through.

when you lose something that you cannot replace.

Live Fast,Die Young

2006-11-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

The night will come

and rip away,

her wings of innocence through

every word we say

maybe it's time,

to spit out the core of our rotting union

hopefully before it chokes

us to our senses.

Guess it's too bad,

that everything we have

is taken away.

Swim in the smoke

the hero will drown

intoxicating beauty tears everything down

but still our hands bound at the wrist

this romantic tragedy is suffocating from your fist,

in a sea of fire.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!

went to home club today,ahahah dont talk about it.:)HAPEE 17TH BIRTHDAY NIC!

I'm just so tired,of everything's that happening.But no,I wont slow this pace down.Instead I'll quicken it,to the pace that even the fastest,and most fucked up fucker living on earth cant keep up.

Hero, Hero, this word you'll never know.

What is good,and what is bad.

2006-11-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

Have you, have you been keeping secrets from me

Hoping I wouldn't find out

And you'd just go free

There's a whole world outside your window pane
And I've got scars to prove it
But you should have known, long ago

Run,

We'll find you

Was is it everything you hoped it would be

What kept your world spinning

Left you dizzy

Your apologies will never sooth the sting;

Just keep scratching our eyes out

Life with my brothers once again,I dont think we'll ever be back to the past.:)

To Nick,Shah;I know you dont see me telling you guys all this weird stuff,but you guys really matter quite a lot to me,deep down inside.Trust me,I wont ever leave you guys behind again,nor throw violent mood swings.

I MISS YOU DARA TOH!
Baby,no words could explain how much you mean to me.

To know where you stand in the world;and finding out your limits.

Lovers & Liars.

2006-11-09T10:20:00.000+08:00

Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
But you're so untouchable.
I'm oh-so-terrible at this.

And I bet you've got every word I said memorized in your head.
And you'll use every line of them,
Every one of them against me.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
Tell all your friends about me.

Has the heart found it's inner peace alreadly?maybe it did.48 hours craving for my baby is hard.

oh yeah,to you.It's alreadly over,stop pestering me alreadly.I dont really care,tell all of your friends! :)

"I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.
I realize how many times i've tried, but that's wishful thinking.
All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
Get me far away, or at least as far as this life will take me."

I'll fall asleep tonight,because that brings me closer to you

Your eyes so addicitive,I'm going crazy without you.:)

2006-11-08T02:08:00.000+08:00

I miss you most on winter mornings
as we drift we slip through evenings, whoa-oh
we drive into the cold and dark with fingers crossed
I follow your eyes to AVOID FROM getting lost

And all I had was the memory of what was
so let's pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
I never thought I'd live to tell

fuck.never felt so alive with my brothers.AHAH thanks Fabian,but I broke the toy sword eh.HOW? buy new one luh.

today was spent eating sushi,buying swords from toys r us and learning on how to be a surgeon. :)

I never thought I'd live to tell
what's a dream and what is real, the way I really feel.

your life is similar to a french hooker.

2006-11-07T02:18:00.000+08:00

These words, fall from your mouth, and stab me in the back
It should have never come to this
It's too late, for your apologies
They can't bring back all that you've taken from me
Stripped of my pride, and left for dead

This time is the last time I take this abuse
I've found my place, and this place is far away from you
How can you say, I'm at fault
The one to blame is you

I'm so tired of apologizing to myself for you
and what you've done to me
And I've tried, to forgive myself for caring about you
Theres nothing I can do

School sucked.they didnt allow me to take POA.gave me history.

:D ! I like scaring my baby.AHAH she's like,everything I ever wished for.Thanks for that nite,thanks for everything.:)